For years, I believed happiness was somewhere ahead of me. In the next achievement, the next place, the next version of my life.
I kept moving, always believing that when I finally arrived, something inside me would settle.
But even when I got everything I thought I wanted, the feeling never lasted.
It took me years to understand that I wasn’t really searching for more.
I was trying to outrun what I didn’t want to feel.
Slowly, I learned to do something different. To sit with myself. To stop asking every difficult feeling to leave, and every beautiful feeling to stay. To let sadness be sadness, happiness be happiness, without needing either to become something else.
Writing became one way of making space for that honesty.
I created Under from the belief that sometimes we don’t need another answer, another distraction, or someone telling us how to feel. We need somewhere to begin listening to ourselves.
Esmeralda
Founder of Under